#honestly he probably believed a lot more weird shit i just never got around to learning about

[bittsandpieces]

How much of a conspiracy theorist? Like...we live under a dome, lizard people, etc. How deep does the rabbit hole go?

He believed in "star children", which is the idea that some people are actually not human, but instead are the souls of celestial beings that choose to come to earth to help other people. He believed *he* was a star child.

He also believed the government was regularly conducting experiments on us via medicine

We dated in late 2021. You might be able to see where this is going. I had only found out about his more... unusual beliefs like a week earlier, and hadn't decided what to do about it. I ended up with the opportunity to get the covid vaccine at the same time as my mom even though it wasn't open to my age group yet, because our local clinic had so much extra that they just wanted to vaccinate as many people as possible. I had to cancel my next date with him to get the vaccine, he got VERY weird about it when I told him why I was canceling. Called me the next day to try to talk me out of it, because he firmly believed that covid was A: invented by China, B: was not real (don't ask me how those two make sense together), and C: that the covid vaccine was actually the US government mass editing our DNA.

So, for obvious reasons, I told him he was an idiot and blocked his phone number

[min-kit]

I will ask a very cliched and silly question about SaxLoch, so in near future ( by near I mean when Lochlan joins college, which is like within a few months or one year) if Lochy has a boyfriend ( or even a girlfriend), how do you think Saxon is going to react to that?

First, I def think he'd have different reactions based on whether Lochlan has a boyfriend or a girlfriend! Girlfriend: I think Saxon would be kind of relieved. Probably going "okay so that THING that happened really was just a fluke. didn't mean anything, lochy has a girl! we're all good!" because honestly, Saxon gives me the vibe of someone who has trouble with the concept of bisexuality... especially when it's so much easier for him to believe Lochy is straight and holds no ~special~ feelings for him. He'd probably get more comfortable around Lochlan again, maybe even try to pry details out of him (because, it's safe to do this again! saxon is bad at boundaries, we know this because he basically said it's okay if Lochlan continues to worship him). He'd just insert himself once again so inappropriately in Lochlan's sexual life, trying to give him extra pointers or making crude jokes (until Lochlan puts his foot down, which I think he would because I like to believe Lochlan starts speaking up for himself once he goes to college and discovers who he is as a person).

boyfriend answer under the cut as it got long

Boyfriend: Saxon is going to have a big problem with this. It's not even because of the gay thing, although Saxon likes to play it off like that's it, saying shit that he's just worried about how hard Lochlan's life is going to be if he's gay or some shit like that. But no. Deep inside he's jealous. Of course, Saxon doesn't have the understanding of his own self to know that's what this is, he just doesn't like seeing this boyfriend of Lochlan's come around, acting so comfortable around their family and in their home. It's not his family and home, he has no right to be so at ease! He's constantly complaining about Lochlan's boyfriend to anyone who listens (Piper mostly though she tries not to listen, but this just causes arguments about Saxon being a homophobe to which he vehemently denies despite dropping the f slur about Lochlan's boyfriend. Not Lochlan, just the boyfriend. One day Piper even says something like "stop calling our brother the f word" and saxon just goes "??? i've never once called him that" and when Piper says he just did, Saxon rolls his eyes and answers "No I called his boyfriend that. there's a difference.") Now there is a bonus option for the boyfriend if you're like me and think that Lochlan is going to primarily date men who are EXACTLY like Saxon. And this can go one of two ways. Either A) he notices they have a LOT in common with him and gets weirded out (and lowkey offended because wtf these are all subpar to the real thing!! how could lochy settle for them when he's right here??--and then he promptly realizes exactly what he just thought and has to go drink himself insane) and B) he doesn't notice they're exactly like him but he DESPISES everything about them. From the way they gel their hair, to their stupid preppy clothes, to the insulting, vulgar, gross jokes and comments they make at the dinner table. What does Lochlan even SEE in this guy??? is he out of his mind?? (in this scenario, Piper wants to gouge her eyes out because what the fuck??? talk about borderline incestual.....)

[uniformbravo]

now that it's officially been 5000 years here's part 2 of rating my natsuyuu volume covers from memory LOL (part 1)

OK starting off strong tbh i might be a genius??? LOOK at this shit this is literally the most accurate ive ever been kgjlsdkgjksd

my tanuma & taki's goofy ass smiles are cracking me up LMAO i think i actually got the facial expressions reversed?? it looks like in the original tanuma & taki are more straight faced while natsume is smiling a lil bit whereas in mine im like. natsume would never smile. he has never smiled in his life im positive. there are no tumblr accounts dedicated to disproving this

honestly im lucky i remembered this cover at all like as i was collecting the different languages' covers i kept forgetting what vol 16 looked like so rly the fact that i got it SO good is literally a miracle im ngl

do i do it. do i give myself the big one-oh do i DESERVE IT. i'm doing it im literally never gonna top this gkdnkfndkg 10/10

OOF YEP THAT'S. YUP. YEAH KFNGKDNDKG

i've literally never noticed nyanko sensei hiding in the corner there kfndkgdf GOOD

god honestly??? this might be the actual worst one LOL i cant remember if this is hinoe or benio (fake fan) but either way i did her SO DIRTY LMFAO AUGH like i dont even know what to say im hiding my face and seeping into the earth in SHAME

straight up didn't know what to do w natsume all i remembered was that he's THERE this is so sad pour one out for vol 17 😔😔😔

1/10 LITERALLY the worst one hgjnfgndf

WHEEZES LOOK AT MY FUCKED UP LITTLE GUYS I DREW A FUCKING PEANUT AND A FLYING POTATO IM SCREAMING

this is rly the best i could do fskdngak GOD. i replaced nyanko sensei w this monsters inc ass motherfucker 😭

honestly stunned i couldn't remember more color on the table, i barely remembered that there were desserts even. man what is going on in vol 18

the fact that the flying potato kind of looks like hiiragi is sending me i have to leave fkjlsnlakjlfkdkgm 5/10

the most important thing i remembered was natsume looking mildly pissed off in sensei's direction i think that's all we really need to know

i was rly hemming & hawing over the color of the floor, v glad i stuck w green but now i know why i kept thinking it might actually be yellow (the blinds). that ball sensei's playing with is a lost fucking cause tho o7

why does my sensei look like a pokemon also gkjsdngalksdgk i didn't remember the bow around his neck that's SUCH A CUTE DETAIL im cryin instant 0/10 orz

tanuma deserves a cup of tea im glad i gave him one. 7/10

A BLANKET...... or maybe a yukata probably that. sensei looks SO CUTE in this one i am taking damage. lil winky ;3

is it weird that the main thing i remembered abt this one was the low contrast shading on natsume's clothes. like it doesn't reflect in my drawing but in my head i went from there to figure out the pose ksglkdg

i straight up made up the bg on this one i cannot BELIEVE it's so close???? it's amazing considering at first i had no idea what to do and started drawing a whole ass table behind them kgnsldkgkd im so glad i erased that LMAO

overall REALLY not too bad, i'll go w a solid 7/10 here

uoooOOUUuu ok............. ok it's FINE............

what is sensei doing on natsume's shoulder like that get DOWN frm there how dare u make me look stupid!!!!!!

i think i remembered a lot of important details here like the color of natsume's clothes (sort of) and the butterflies and all the books stacked up in the bg.... OH i just realized sensei is up there bc hes trying to catch the butterflies OK FINE THAT'S CUTE....... I'LL ALLOW IT o)-<

this is one of the prettiest covers btw i love this one LOOK AT IT. look at natsume's SMILE assemble the fucking troops we need to protect this one at ALL COSTS

6/10 could've been better but the most important parts are there

VOLUME 22 MY LOVE....... this one's my FAVORITE cover god it's so good LOOK AT THISSSS i even went all out & added shading to this one n everything, v dramatique...... atmospherique 👌

it's a pretty easy one to remember since the composition and general impact are so strong but dont worry i think at this point it's my Job to find things to get wrong nfjsjdgdkfj

there's a figure of natsume & madara that's similar to this which i think influenced me to make the yukata fully red but likeee there's red on the one in the original cover too so I Think i get a free pass with 0 points docked ok locking it in thamk you. the figure btw:

i rly thought sensei's eyes were open tho jgknsdk stop falling asleep back there...... also how did i forget the size of the moon it's ENORMOUS smdh!!

all in all this is like basically exact NGL it might be another ten.... ok im gonna give it a 9/10 bc since it's my fave cover i should've at least remembered the color of his yukata i think. i said i get a free pass on that but life isnt fucking fair ok

LOL THIS ONE HAD HANDS..... i stg i came up w a phantom cover in my head where natsume's wearing this yellow scarf & sensei's on his shoulder i SWEAR I CAN SEE IT but alas reality is CRUEL

this is another preddy cover look how soft and warm.... also sensei bein cute +7

so as u can see i struggled w this one dnfjdngj the scarf thing was REALLY throwing me for a loop, i invented snow??? but then i was like but it's so yellow there are lanterns i think. but there can't be BOTH what does it MEAN. (it means ur wrong u Buffoon)

the text in the first one says im not gonna redraw it & then i redrew it, when will the lies end. 6/10 the foundation's there i just forgot several details & forced in my scarf headcanon

alright. this is like. not bad. COULD BE BETTER, BUT U KNOW...

my sensei is being sooo warm & cuddly while the real one is fighting for his fucking life kgkanlkdj this is propaganda taki made. her Death Grippe

tanuma's pose was a complete mystery to me i just remembered he's there and like what else do u need. the boy is HERE thank youuuuu

also had no idea what taki was wearing, the cream colored sweater was kind of a shot in the dark but u know what call me the gun slinging hash slinging dong swingin meat bea-

6/10 it's passable

WINDOW CONFIRMED LET'S GO???? CALL ME THE GUN SLINGIN-

if u squint u can interpret my natori's suit as very muted olive green so technically it's definitely correct and not meant to be gray that would be SOOOO wacky and silly of me :3

i was fighting for my life trying to figure out the colors for matoba's outfit which u will see SO clearly in the next one kgalkgsdkg but it's fine. it's fine. it's so fine and cool and awesome out here like u wouldnt BELIEVE

once again a surprise yukata draped around the shoulders, i should just start doing that as my default instead of the school uniform thing TBH midorikawa sensei LOVES a good flowery haori like When In Doubt.....

4/10 i rly did try but there are just TOO many discrepancies lkgjalk

farting in my sleep over this one what da HELL i thought i was a GONER WHY IS THIS LIKE ACTUALLY KINDA CLOSE

25 and 26 are such good covers together we LOVE a good pair.... (pair of stinky smelly exorcists am i R

its mostly the colors i got close not necessarily the.... designs... lmfao.... i just knew this one was kinda dark and kinda red. ik it doesn't rly look like it but that main bg color around the window is this palette's analogue for black, the darkest color besides the lineart, so at LEAST i got that right

if u cant tell what the HELL is going on w the windows it's ok you're so normal for that bc i didn't know what i was doing w that either and still kinda dont LOL i was like. ok maybe it's a screen kinda thing and it has a leaf pattern??? that would explain the colors???? and so i went w that

also u may or may not have noticed by now my plan of attack for the yukata patterns is always to just splotch around the colors i THINK are involved and hope that it looks like the original in the end LOL so that form of bullshit is what got me here today, theres no FUCKING way i would have ever remembered the spider lilies but since i splotched a bunch of reds on the fabric it kinda looks right.... PRO STRATS DONT TRY THIS AT HOME KIDS

o yea uhhh 5/10 for sheer dumb luck :)

AUGH DAMN IT I KNEW SENSEI WAS IN THERE SOMEWHERE AAAAAAAAA

why does this cover make me think they're at the beach man EVERY TIME they dont even live by the ocean.... what is this...... but they coulda been on a school trip U DONT KNOW

theyre so cute god i wish i'd gotten this one a little more correct. i just remembered that seafoam green kind of color and just soft pretty pastel colors in general. this is such a good cover dude it's about GOD DAMN TIME nishimura & kitamoto got a cover WAAAAAA i love them sm ;w;

i tried i rly did but hm 4/10 the only things i got right were kitamoto & nishimura and a bench, also some bags. man look at them those are TRAVEL BAGS they are so on a trip THIS IS TRAVEL VIBES FOR SURE maybe they are at the ocean. when i get to this volume in my read thru U WILL ALL SEE

not the worst!!!! not by a long shot. i covered natsume's wrong eye or maybe euurmmm the original artwork is flipped and i was actually right all along wheres my JUSTICE

this one's pretty striking too w those red flowers & the snow ugh what a pretty cover this one's also pretty high up there. i gave natori a scarf bc i have common fucking sense what are u DOING MY GUY. BUTTON THE FUC UP

why is natsume like telekinetically levitating the book of friends do u see that. what the hell natsume gets psychic powers that's so sick. lifting the slice of pizza w his mind

ok i give this oneeeee 7/10 pretty solid imo. some details are wrong but i included most of the elements present which is Preddy Good

like just recently got this volume i shoulda looked harder at it gjskdkngksd who knew the wall was fuckin green the WHOLE TIME

sensei what are u even DOING. fucking points. is he reaching for the candle. it's too big for ur little paws ur TOO SMALL

tanuma looks SO nice on this cover ugh i love this cover what is the story behind this i gotta know oughghhh it has such a Classic Mystery feel i LOVE it. i for sure remembered hiiragi being in one of the paintings and i knew she was more bottom right but bc of the way i drew things there wasn't gonna be room so i just put her up higher instead bc i still wanted to draw her. worth it tbh look at her shes perfect

also like holy shit those guys in the top right corner i SWEAR 2 god i didn't remember them being there i just didn't know what else to draw so i drew them AND THEN THEY WERE ACTUALLY THERE????? LITERALLY THE GUN SLINGIN ROOTIN TOOTIN PARTY POOPIN-

7/10 all the elements are there just not like. Correct. look at natsume's outfit i had no idea what tf was going on there all i remembered was his sleeve lookin like that and the rest was such a mystery. i think it's just a sweater but in my mind i was like this is so fucked up and evil guys im scared

ok i've only seen this one a few times since it's so new i dont think there are any other versions of it yet besides the japanese one but GOD LOOK AT IT IT'S SO PRETTY AAAAAHHHH I CANT WAIT TIL THE ENGLISH VERSION COMES OUT AAAAAAAAA

literally art school vibes LOOK AT HIMMMM he is posing he is the model i am drawing him i am drawing him i am drawing h

sensei's the real model here tho like look at him the perfect subject. replace all "draw an egg" assignments w "draw nyanko sensei" i guarantee 30 michaelangelos will come walkin outta that classroom

so the main thing here was purble obvs but i forgor abt the curtains.... they're so delicate & pretty god. natsume pls tho why are all ur papers falling out get it together. im sorry i shouldnt have said that actually ur doing perfect sweetie i love u LGKNSLDK nyanko sensei pick up his papers for him immediately

yo illegal observation actually the notebook is spiral bound on the long side but the falling papers are torn on the short side?? hello 911 my world is falling apart because of this i'll never be the same again???OH NEVERMIND I SEE IT NOW ITS THE PERSPECTIVE i was looking at the perspective wrong oh my god im so sorry for my ignorance midorikawa sensei i should have believed in u im a clown im a FRAUD im going to study art for the next 25 years as penance so i will never make such a foolish mistake again 😔😔😔

5/10 idea's there but its a little too fucked up overall and frankly i deserve a 0 for my hubris 🙇‍♂️🙇‍♂️🙇‍♂️

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and that's the end!!! it's been so long since i wrote all this that we're well past vol 30's release and vol 31 has been up for preorder and u may be thinking Well Where Is Vol 31 From Memory Then. and well. haha. let's just say. haha ;)

(the truth: i've already hit the 30 image limit on this post so i wouldn't be able to include it even if i had looked at vol 31's cover more than once for like 10 seconds and retained enough to draw it from memory. i think it's natsume and matoba? wearing white??? or SOMETHING im not looking it up rn feel free to eliminate me)

oh right the total score WELL adding up everything from this post we have!!! 89/150 WHICH if we add to last time's score of 74/150 gives us a WHOPPING 163/300!!! wow!!!!! that's just over half let's fucking GOOOOO 🎉🎉🎉

thank u to my mom and the folder of over 750 images i have saved of every natsuyuu manga cover front and back (and spine if available) in several different languages that made all of this possible, And Also Viewers Like You :) and the 27 tabs i still have open of the sites i got all those pictures from so i can continue this nonsense indefinitely please god somebody stop me 700+ was NOT an exaggeration im so serious rn-

[thecarnivorousmuffinmeta]

if tom got the DADA job what would he have been like as a teacher? would dumbledore have tried to watch him/get him fired?

Tom's Not Getting the Job

Well, you answered it, anon, Tom was never getting that job.

That's the whole thing.

The first time he tries, he's only eighteen and very unqualified for the position. Dippet said no and... Dumbledore strongly implies that he put in a very strong word against Tom being hired. I'm not sure Tom would have been hired anyway, he was only eighteen and had no credentials and we're told canonically that Hogwarts teaching is a very prestigious position and they do not typically hire you straight out of school, but regardless Dumbledore did actively put in word against him which meant it probably wouldn't have happened.

Then some years later after Tom's gone abroad, Tom comes back for the interview with Dumbledore and the interview is just Dumbledore laughing at him and telling him he's an idiot for thinking he'd ever get this job and Dumbledore would never ever hire him.

So long as Dumbledore's around, Tom's not getting the job. Tom also either didn't have the connections with the Board of Governors or the Ministry/was too proud to use them to get himself that job (I'm inclined to believe the latter but technically we don't know for certain).

Tom was never getting that job.

Dumbledore wouldn't sit around waiting for him to get fired, because he already did it, he fired Tom by never hiring him. It's done. It ain't happening and the only way it would happen is if someone went completely over Dumbledore's head and there was nothing he could do about it.

Tom the Teacher

Well, he'd be in the staff meetings from hell (does Hogwarts even have staff meetings?) where every time they meet it's Dumbledore saying something weird about him regardless of whether or not he's up to shit.

I imagine Dumbledore would do everything in his power to give Tom as little authority as possible and make sure rumor's good and spread around the students that Tom sucks.

Given Tom probably isn't telling the world he's a half-blood here or the Heir of Slytherin, as he didn't seem to canonically until he came out as Voldemort/that's not a great thing to do when the Chamber of Secrets is right there and he was at the school at the time when that happened, that means the Purebloods don't like him but you also have Dumbledore's camp not liking Tom on top of that because Dumbledore doesn't like Tom.

(Now, if Tom's not becoming Voldemort, Dumbledore might not have quite the same following he does by the time we reach canon, as most of those people were involved in the conflict with Voldemort/that's what's most present in cultural memory in Harry Potter, but I imagine he's still very influential for the same reason he was such a lightning rod for the resistance movement in HP against Voldemort.)

Honestly? I see Tom being a relatively ordinary Hogwarts professor, he's probably a lot better than all of the DADA professors Harry had, maybe even most of his professors period, but he still has to deal with kids who don't want to learn and a system of magic people don't understand. Magic in Harry Potter is just memorizing spells, not how they work, and so the better wizards and witches are just those who memorize more spells faster. Tom can't make the kids who do this well do it any better than any other professor and he can't make the kids who don't do it well suddenly do it better.

It's also very out of scope to discuss how magic even works and start doing something interesting with it when it's something the wizarding world just doesn't discuss or deal with at all and will just confuse most of the students (even up to seventeen) that he'd be dealing with.

I imagine Tom hates putting up with Dumbledore and is just waiting for the man to retire or die.

[sephirthoughts]

I would honestly love for you to answer all the "Honest Character Asks" for Sephiroth, but instead, what I'm going to do is ask you to answer the ten that you most want to be asked. Is that okay?

[from this ask game]

hoohoohoo i get to pick!!!

OH NO actually choosing on my own is way harder than having them chosen for me

WHYYYYYYYYY

nvm it was actually pretty easy

here ya go!!! 🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤

3. What first drew you to this character?

i saw this gif going around on the internet and found out it was real and not a mod, and joined tumblr about it. this is not a joke

5. If this character were a woman, would you honestly still like them? Or in reverse, what if they were a man?

if sephiroth was a woman and he was *exactly the same* i would still like him exactly as much (probably a lot MORE if we're being honest). HOWEVER. square enix does an absolutely deplorable awful embarrassing shit-ass job writing and designing female characters, and i do not believe for one second that they could be trusted with a female version of sephiroth, who they wrote intending her to be female.

gender transposition of the character as-is: 👍✅

squeenix-designed and written female version: 👎🚫

8. Does the character’s looks/design matter to you?

yes. absolutely. if he didn't have long-ass white anime hair and a needlessly dramatic FLOOR LENGTH BLACK LEATHER coat, how would i know he was a villain/ridiculous edgelord and thus awesome?

11. How did you “fall in love” with this character?

i had only heard vaguely of final fantasy until fairly recently, but i knew there was a guy i called "the hot one" with long white hair, and i could tell he was an absolutely ridiculous edgelord from his clothing and design, so i knew i'd like him, if i ever got round to checking out this final fantasy thing. then i heard his name was SEPHIROTH which is a PLURAL TERM for an esoteric religious concept and i laughed so hard i woke up my cat, and decided i had to know more about him. THEN i found out he had A SINGLE BLACK WING and a HUGE SWORD and CAT EYES and i was absolutely done for. heart stolen

i just can't resist a ridiculous edgelord what can i say

16. Have you ever cried when thinking about this character? Genuinely?

yes. genuinely. FIGHT ME

17. Have you ever felt physical pain over this character? (ex: physical heartache).

same answer COME AT ME

31. Are you ashamed of liking this character?

i have never been ashamed of anything i have liked ever in my life

44. Which season makes you think of this character?

winter. sephiroth is a winter baby. @getvalentined has a whole thing explaining that he was likely born on christmas day, with which i agree heartily. and he's a winter color-pallette. also there is no way that coat works in any other season without him being a fire hydrant of sweat

46. How much do bad interpretations of this character upset you?

HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHA 😬

all joking aside, they don't upset me so much as annoy me. i don't care about "being right" i just can't stand misinformation. i have this weird tic where i really need things to be as accurate as possible. also my motive in analysing or explaining or talking with people about a thing is mostly to share my enjoyment of the thing, and if people wildly misunderstand the thing, they might not enjoy it as much as they could. my autistic is showing isn't it. oops

49. What’s your favorite personality trait in this character?

my favorite personality trait of sephiroth is his gentleness.

yes i know he's a genocidal maniac who wants to incinerate the planet's population and use it as a spaceship, ignore all that.

pre-nibelheim fire, he's actually one of the gentlest male characters i've ever seen in a video game. and he's not meant to be effeminate or a pathetic pushover, which is usually the only way you see men portrayed as soft or gentle in japanese media (and tbh most western media).

he's the most famous warrior in the world. he's possibly the strongest being on the planet. he could kill you with a snap of his fingers. and despite all that, he is nothing even vaguely resembling an alpha-male toxic masculinity case. he's not even standoffish or arrogant. he's just...gentle. he's soft-spoken, thoughtful, courteous, self-effacing, and compassionate. he treats his subordinates with kindness and respect. he tries to make other people comfortable and thinks of them before himself.

he's not weak, he is using a soft touch and a light step, intentionally, so as not to frighten or damage all the little humans. that is incredibly endearing and a thing i love about him

thank you for the ask!! 🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤

[transgoodman]

do you have any jackvid headcanons?

DON’T GET ME STARTED LAD. a lot of these are just jack but he’s easier to analyze and think about despite his screen time. also added some screenshots of things i’ve said in @aawilyaoi’s dms about them ummm ignore the name…

- jack has internalized “homophobia,” he’s not homophobic but he doesn’t really want to admit he has something for david. once he accepts it, he just tries his hardest to ignore it in hopes that it’ll go away.

- jack’s crush and comments on debbie are mainly a coverup. he definitely has some sort of attraction to her, but most of it he’s just exaggerating for show. it’s a crush but he overdoes it.

- both are bisexual disasters. jack knows but doesn’t really know the term and david is completely oblivious that he likes men. he thinks all the thoughts he has about jack are normal bro things.

- jack was genuinely miserable while he was dead. he tried to joke about it and make light of the situation of course, but the time he spent in “limbo” was the worst he’s ever felt. he was severely suicidal but couldn’t do anything about it cause….y’know. he was worse than he was letting on.

- casually cuddle when drunk. it’s never anything romantic, they both just get touchy when under the influence.

- we know that canonically david has siblings but what about jack? to me he seems like the type to be a middle child. an absolute terror to his younger sibling and a nuisance to his older sibling. would fight tooth and nail for both of them though. very protective of both them, more so his younger sibling. probably has two sisters honestly.

- jack fell harder than david. david has feelings for him sure but jack has a deep sort of love for him, more strong than david.

- david expresses his love through occasional touch. it’s very sparse but it’s there. jack expresses it through gifts and very very rare verbal gestures. he’s too scared to really express how much he appreciates david cause he knows he’ll never hear the end of it.

- adding on, jack brushes off his deep yearning and care for david with jokes and jabs. he truly loves and cares for david in a way he can’t explain and wouldn’t even begin to express in fear of being corny. he really does love his best friend, romantically or not, and would do anything for him. david deeply loves jack of course, but it’s not anything as deep as jack’s feelings.

- bpd jack goodman x high-functioning autism david kessler. both are undiagnosed and oblivious, since it’s the 80s and stuff. jack probably has adhd or something. jack has bad bpd spirals and can’t help it when he lashes out at david, and his “unrequited” closeted love for david does not help. it’s never anything intentional or toxic, he truly can’t help it and he doesn’t want to be the way he is but he doesn’t know how to stop or why he is the way he is. david is just socially awkward and misunderstands social cues.

- random hc but jack is great with kids and they always instantly click with him. he’s like that slightly weird uncle who takes you places when you’re supposed to be in school. david is SUUUUPER awkward around kids and they always ask him questions he doesn’t know how to answer.

- while in limbo, jack wanted nothing more than to just break and comfort david but he knew he had to stay firm and persuade him to kill himself. it truly broke him seeing his best friend in that state.

- genuine soulmates. romantic or platonic, they are soulmates and are meant to be together in every universe.

- jack drives david around because despite having a license, david can’t drive for shit and jack fears for his life while in the car with him. insists on driving them places and if david even suggests he immediately shuts him down. david gives him gas money at least.

- if david’s grief was explored more, i believe he’d have insane survivor’s guilt. it was partially his fault jack died in the first place. it was his idea to go to europe when jack didn’t want to go. he slipped and got jack killed when he stopped to help him. he would’ve been going through it had he not had alex to distract and support him.

- jack can roller skate and david CANNOT. slips and falls every time. david can ice skate but jack absolutely can’t. he goes home shivering and covered in ice shavings and vows to never go again. he does of course.

- if david is sick jack is by his side and taking care of him. he could be making him soup and would complain the entire time about how he has to help him but if david even mentions being fine he shuts it down. if jack is sick he’s complaining the entire time and if david asks if he’s sick or needs anything he’s in constant denial. he refuses to let david help.

i definitely have wayyyy more but these are all i can think of rn :( thank you for asking though these guys drive me insane.

[menlove]

wait curious about your thoughts on this. i genuinely dont believe the paul john reconciliation thing that paul pushes in every interview (abt the bread phone call etc) like im sure they had that conversation and maybe that was a nice memory but theres a paul late november 1980 interview (good morning america i think?) where the interviewer is like “john said you died creatively etc” and then paul gets very awkward and said he just keeps quiet publicly or else john will get resentful and that he doesnt know why john does that. its literally like two weeks before john died idk im like a mclennon ended on bad terms truther and i genuinely believe pauls batshit behavior the last 40 years is the result of him feeling bad about everything

I think I'm at a bit of a middle road with it! because there's certainly that (although what john actually said in that interview was meant differently and seemingly misconstrued to paul to try and start drama, although it sadly says a lot that paul sort of just expected that sort of thing by that point) & I do think that their relationship by 1980 was a lot more complicated than paul has wanted to talk about (for good reason). I wanna say there's a few interviews where he even says that, like it was difficult to come to terms with his feelings on everything with john bc suddenly he was Dead you know?

but I do think them reconciling and being friends again wouldn't necessarily negate that. there was a lot of baggage between them at that point & it would be very easy for the two of them to be Wary of each other even if they WERE on good terms and calling more often. which would just make paul's reaction to "john said you died creatively" even more of a blow for him like "what the hell, we're on good terms now, why is he STILL saying this shit?" and given that it was misconstrued and I wanna say not even a PUBLISHED interview yet, he really had nothing to go on except being ambushed by that question

plus there's the fact that they apparently had a recording studio booked for '81 and john was set to come back to england to record with him. and ofc (just like) starting over in general, though that depends on how much you believe that was for paul

honestly I think john died while they were on confusing terms. not really a Great place but also not on bad terms either. sort of a "yeah okay, we've made up, we're trying, maybe we'll get together and record, now what?" sort of place. especially given a lot anecdotes that yoko was fielding calls from paul & requests to come see john. I think they both Wanted to make up, but life was in the way. so they got phone calls about bread. but paul was obviously still wary and hurt/confused by john's back and forth behavior. I think there's some other quote somewhere from paul about how he never knew what he'd be picking the phone up to. on john's end, he probably WAS hopeful and fully intent on recording with him in the next year and, ya know, starting over. for paul, he probably didn't know if he could hold him to that or even hold him to being nice the next time they talked.

but ya know, 40+ years down the line, it's probably a bit easier to cling onto the good moments and not the confusion around where they stood at the end. lots of time for reflection on how john must have been feeling & coming to the conclusion that they WERE on track to being okay again. I think at the Time paul was probably just rightfully very cautious & that had to be a weird feeling to deal with after any future plans were killed with john

[weebsinstash]

Babe! A new Helluva Boss episode just dropped! And Ozzie and Fizz are just so goddamn cute! 😍😭 and Ozzie is such a sweetheart! (I hope he’s genuinely such a softie and not playing an act, we need more softie demons).

Can we please talk about Yandere! Ozzie again? Pretty please with a shit ton of sprinkles on top? 🥺

Bestie thank youuuu I watched that shit immediately and I have so many thoughts

This episode actually shows a big reason why I haven't really published a lot for like, Ozzie or Valentino in terms of actual fics because, my take on Ozzie's personality based purely off his debut appearance would've been a lot more different and now we see that, bro he's, suave yeah, but also, a huge green flag lovable cinnamon roll dork??? Valentino, we only have seen so much of. To be honest the way he's been presented seems to sway from "scary as fuck during gangster business stuff" to "he's kind of a ratchet ho, actually" and I'm not, entirely super confident writing stuff for him because like, I'm more of, assuming? I can't, analyze his character like I can for other characters with more material out for them.

For real though, my current stance on this matter is: Asmodeus, you could go to him and ask for his knowledge and advice on like genuine issues or things you're curious or concerned about like, legit you could sit down and have STD talks with this man ("h-hey Ozzie is it normal to have xyz on my you know what" "oh honey yes that's just like a blood blister from friction you're fine" "oh my god ok good because I was worried it was cancer" "HONEY NO 😩") meanwhile fucking Valentino over here would be like "bitch why you got cellulite" and like make backhanded comments like, oh maybe he could reward you with a boob job instead of your next paycheck (as in like, cosmetic surgery 💀 you know I've thought about that? Yan Valentino who's crazy for ya but, not crazy enough to not make certain, tweaks to your actual body. Maybe he dyes your hair or has it styled a specific way and basically refuses to let you do whatever you want with it. Gets your boobs or ass done. Makes you get fillers/botox for any wrinkles/static lines. Controlling your wardrobe is a must. You're like his little.... pursedog)

(That being said though. I'd still let him hit 😩 reader who gets drunk and fucks around and finds out--)

Anyways though, over here in our corner we believe in unapologetic self indulgence and I still believe a Reader who has magical abilities or powers and whatnot and can travel the rings through whatever convoluted means is a fun time. So. We're gonna do that! I mean. Asmodeus honestly seems chill enough that even if you like, somehow crashed into his club, as long as you were polite and respectful, he'd be chill with letting your hang around, maybe even getting a kick out of teasing you (but never pushing anything too far unless you show interest, and if you show any discomfort or trauma he backs off to re-strategize). I imagine his club would actually be pretty fun? Drinks, live music, although, kind of makes me wonder, how openly horny is this place? Probably not like "coochie in your face" like working for Valentino, so, Reader could even be all "honestly this is such a much more safe welcoming environment to engage in like sexuality" and Ozzie hears this and its like, dude. You might as well have just struck him through the heart with cupids own arrow, but, also, he's curious, what other places have you been?

I'm kind of convinced that if a little imp cunt like Crimson thinks he has the balls to stand up against Ozzie, hostage or not, I kinda feel like. Valentino would probably openly treat Asmodeus like shit. He'd probably be a catty fucking bitch to him. He probably looks at Ozzie as like, a diet coke version of himself, a version who has so much power but doesn't go far enough, and probably scoffs at Asmodeus' romantic attachment (even though Val has some weird on-off thing with Vox himself). Valentino doesn't give two fucks about consent and would probably openly mock Ozzie'e values

Or. They could be big business partners because, maybe there's some sort of inter-Ring porn trafficking pipeline or something, smuggling the good shit up from Lust and trading it with stuff from Sinners, who have more visual variety besides other perks etc

But just picture, Asmodeus and Fizz are, minding their own biz, at the club, chilling, listening to music, eating food vaguely shaped like clocks, and Ozzie's cell rings, and they're both like "aw I bet Reader's calling to say they're having fun at that party or whatever" but they answer it and you're like, hiding in the bathroom or a closet or something, crying, whispering under your breath "d-do you still have a place for me to stay like you said before 🥺 Valentino is really, REALLY drunk tonight and he's really scaring me, he grabbed me and--"

They're both at your exact location in like less than 5 minutes and maybe have to play it off, Ozzie distracting Val while Fizz steals you away, or, juicier, like. Imagine Val snatching your phone from your hand, going through your messages, "who the fuck have you been talking to?" And he pulls like the classic abusive boyfriend move and when he sees you're in frequent contact with someone named "Ozzie" he calls him from your phone and as soon as a male voice picks up, they're both going at it "bitch who the fuck are you?" "Bitch who the fuck are YOU?" "Why you got my baby's number?" "Why do YOU have MY baby's PHONE???" "I'm about to HAVE my foot up your ass, you--" like, you know what I mean? Asmodeus is rolling up and these two are all but butting heads with each other as you have to awkwardly explain how you know both of them and of course, suddenly there's a not quite comfortable conversation about which one of them you... "belong to", neither of them wanting to leave you with the other (although I imagine in a physical fight Asmodeus would win but Valentino would have homefield advantage involving his security dudes)

Either way like.... oh my god watching them lounge in that nice big bed together. Fizz being on Ozzie's chest, like. Give me that 😩😩😩 "oh Reader, baby, so glad you took up our offer for a place to crash, but, since it was so short notice it'll have to be with us tonight" type shit and like you're fine with that but then bedtime comes and. There's Literally Only One Bed. And you're like ok you know what I'm not really in a position to be ungrateful, Valentino could have actually fucking hurt me or trafficked me or whatever, but, you're still small enough that Asmodeus could hypotheticallyyyy just, reach an arm over and scoop up you into his chest for a cuddle, or just have you in the crook of his arm like a cat or a teddy bear. Ozzie definitely sees an immediate perk on Fizz not being so much of a troll as to give you the airhorn treatment your first morning there, so, obviously, they have, multiple motivations to, keep urging you to stay 👀 after all, Val is going to be looking for you in the Pride Ring, and you don't have any other friends, so, you're kind of stuck with their whims aren't you? Unless you try to run off on your own, and I mean. Really. They can just hire someone to bring you back lmao. Or get you themselves. Could you imagine feeling way you uncomfortable around them and slipping away and suddenly you find a little white demon dog on wheels happily rolling up to you out of nowhere and it's. Fucking tracking you for Fizzarolli and Asmodeus, like. Damn, can't even trust the dogs in Hell. Demon dogs in Ohio be like

Anyways idk I just like the idea of like. Combining several ideas, you do the whole "accidentally did the whole Death Fall From The Sky and crash into Vals sunroof, he keeps you in servitude because you have to repay him, eventually you Fall into Lust and you start basically doing double jobs at both clubs and prefer Ozzie and he eventually has to rescue you". Also like Valentino "canonically" humiliates his partners on social media so I can imagine he's just publicly belittling and negging you all the time. One second you're happy at Ozzie's listening to music and eating unholy amounts of onion rings with your quirky well intentioned clown friend, the next week Asmodeus sees a Sinstagram post where Valentino is just like "cutie was whining she couldn't get any tips so I helped her out 😜🤭🍈🍈" and its just. A photo of you in your work uniform where he clearly just reached forward and tore open the front of your blouse and he is just. Full on deadass without any hint of irony making you basically work in your bra and he's just without any remorse posting photos of your running mascara and you're clearly crying but what can you do?

Val posting a photo of him literally shoving a tip INTO your bra, his FINGERS in there, and other like little clips and snippets of him demeaning you while you're like actually fucking blubbering "and make sure to get me extra ice!" "*sobbing noises*" "I didn't hear a REPLY! Do I need to take some of those nice tips I'm helping you make?" "N n noOo I'm sorry" "sorry WHAT?" "M sorry mister Valentino, I'm sorry, I'll get your drink right away mister Valentino" and Val is just slapping your ass HARD as you turn to leave like and just laughing like this is the most fun he's ever had

like I feel like Asmodeus realistically would only be able to do so much IN Pride itself (because would You show up in your boss' turf doing your own shit? Big risk) BUT, I mean. You go down to Lust and you're basically fair game. You show up to your next shift after The Boob Incident and Ozzie's like "giiiiiiiirl imma keep it real with you, I know you wanna try and be independent but I got some concerns--" and he's barely even halfway through it before you're just, TEAR EXPLOSION, "i hate working for him, I HATE IT, I wanna work HERE full time, but I don't have a place to staAaaAaay" and just. Some UGLY crying because you're at wits end

Zero hesitation here's Asmodeus "Sweetie what kind of apartment do you want??? You want a penthouse? I can get you a penthouse?? You want some shopping money?? Tell Big O whatever you need." and the next thing you know Valentino is scrolling through Sinastagram and has to do a double take as your account starts posting all kinds of photos of you looking cute and having fun and, poolside in a bathing suit and you're becoming more comfortable with your body and your sexuality and, he's thirsty absolutely, goes to try and tease you or make fun of you and you're just like "you wanna fuck me so bad it makes you look stupid" and just ignore him as Val is forced to watch you pal around with Asmodeus (either as just friends or total fuck buddies like, deadass catch me out here "hey so, there's this position I've always wanted to try--")

[anonym-potato]

Nein Again - 2x11 "Zemnian Nights"

Wow I've been busy. Last time, the Nein did some more officially-sanctioned dungeon diving and found a back route into Bel Air. Spoilers Ahoy!

I rate this Sam Riegel DnD Beyond ad a 5/10 this would be way better if Ashley was here.

Also Dani! She's here!

Honestly, Nott being like 'I need a preexisting person to Disguise Self as so I don't get distracted by all the details' is such a mood.

WEIRD SHIT REPORT: Fjord has got Pumat to transfer the Mariner's Studded Leather enchantment to his Breastplate. Mollymauk has also purchased a Periapt of Wound Closure, which certainly will never come up.

I feel like Nott would enjoy having three other versions of herself around. Nott, and probably no one else.

Side note, I know the little fist-in-hand wrist flex/knuckle crack Travis always does is probably just him stimming, but in my head it's such a Fjord gesture.

Speaking of the Halls of Erudition - Oremid Haas is such an interesting character within the wider political sphere of the Empire. I believe he's canonically CN? I would like to know more about his Deal.

Chastity's Nook you will always be famous

Okay but how much hemm hemm hemm is in Tusk Love. How pornographic is the actual book that will be for sale soon. Laura what exactly have you wrought

Beau/Marisha's squeaky little confused noise at Caleb's bread trick is so funny.

"I just wanna make a lot of money and drink a lot of booze" don't worry Beau you can do those in addition to reforming the nation

I need to put more dead bodies in conspicuous out-of-the-way locations in my D&D games

"How are his shoes?" - Taliesin Jaffe

Wow thank you for that much better plan Fjord I forgot how bad their original scheme was.

Yeah gang let's go spy on the nice domestic evening of the couple we just met.

Jester dramatically flinging herself against the door frame gets me every time. I assume that's what that pose was.

Also Nott ignoring the obvious trap is amazing.

As is Matt immediately putting on the tense fight music for the standoff.

I love how Sam plays Nott under the effects of Molly's charm spell. Just the right balance of information to answer some questions without spoiling the mystery.

Molly's probably a little aggravated he has to keep up the sword-praying thing now that Fjord's invested.

Oh hey Oskar's carrying Genevieve across a field on the cover of the book!

Oh Courting of the Crick, I love it when a thing happens during the campaign that would be so egregiously on the nose if this was scripted as to be absurd. Comes up a lot this Campaign.

Oh hey Imogen has relatives out here.

Crown of Madness is a delightfully weird spell, I should take it next time I get the chance.

Jester breaking off the lock with her bare hands is amazing, I'd like to think that's the moment Beau became attracted to her.

It is so telling to the party's eventual Vibe that they don't take the Knights of Requital at their word.

In Conclusion: Heist next episode. What could possibly go wrong?

[lemmylemons]

Random, useless Tekken headcanons at 6 AM because I am bored and still a little high, but it's okay:

• Kazuya and Jun sleep like bunnies in bed, they curl up and fight over their covers because they both clutch onto the blankets for dear life

• Kazuya snores LIKE A MOTHERFUCKING TRUCK STOP, like Jun got used to it when they were young, but she comes back, gets back into bed with him, and swears to God he's going to choke to death in his sleep; and it's not like, consistent snoring, it's 'HONK-HONK *random incoherent noises*'

• I don't know if Marshall is still married, but I honestly think he's probably divorced - and married to Paul for money and convenience, DO NOT FIGHT ME ON THIS, I AM RIGHT (they 'adopted' Steve, aka, Steve lives with them)

• Jinpachi and Wang are just a little zesty, please, I love them, THEY'RE A LITTLE HOMOSEXUAL...

• Jin always, somehow, wakes up with his thumb in his mouth, he could be sleeping like a plank, but still wake up with his thumb in his mouth; ah, trauma (it's just comfy for him); adding onto that - I think biting his finger nails or skin is his indicator that he's stressed

• Kazuya's bisexual, Jun's a little unlabeled; she just goes with the flow of whoever (Kazuya's has many secret boyfriends when he was young, nothing can't convince me)

• MY PERSONAL FAV LITTLE WEIRD POLY SHIP THAT HAS ABSOLUTELY NO CONTENT: Raven x Victor x Dragunov - LET ME EXPLAIN - Raven and Victor are dating, (in my opinion, Raven's in his early 40's, he's gay, Victor's bi, they're definitely "open") and Dragunov is like... A 'sugar baby' who drops in, starts shit, SOMETHING happens between them, and then they go back to hating him (queers)

• Kazuya knew Jun was pregnant, I honestly believe that he knew, but it was in a short time frame from his death, if he didn't fucking DIE, I think he definitely would have had an amazing relationship with Jin

• I have a page in my notebook dedicated to Jin headcanons, and my favorite is that Jin has a stuffed tiger named 'Tora', it's a bit ripped, extra loved and dirty (from being left outside in Yakushima): it was given to him when he was born by Jun... As he thought- turns out, when Kazuya heard she was pregnant, he got a little stuffed tiger to give to their unborn baby, but obviously, his ass died, and Jun still gave it to Jin... He found out and blew a fuse, refusing to believe it

• All the Mishimas are born with that fuckass hair, evident by Kazuya LITERALLY being born with that fuckass hair

• Steve Fox is gay, do not fight me on that, he's gay

• When Kazuya was a baby, Kazumi used to sit down with him and her pet tiger, letting the 2 just kind of... Explore one another, the tiger was a gift from Heihachi, and she LOVED that tiger, so she likes to include it in family time - so she'd take baby Kazuya and just set him in front of the tiger and let to two sniff and grab at each other

• Jin's vegetarian to me, like, obviously he needs to protein, but I feel like he gets sad every time he has to eat meat because he just thinks of the animals

• Heihachi baby talks Kuma, I will never not think that; obviously not in front of others, but it happens, it fucking happens

• If Kazuya lived for Jin, he'd be the best house husband ever - obviously Jun's around a lot, but if she has to take a case, Kazuya's cooking for them, cleaning, with Jin, best house husband

I'll have more eventually...

[passthe5sos]

F O U R ; P L A N

"Well, now that you've got your gun, It's much harder now the police have come, and I'll shoot him if it's what you ask, but if you just take off your mask you'd find out everything's gone wrong, now everybody's dead."

Rory

Every bone in my body feels brittle. Being wanted only for sex is a weird feeling. Never before had a guy ever come to me explicitly for sex. It's always been 'did you take the math notes?' and 'what'd you get on number eight, i just guessed'. I had never ever felt like I've been wanted in a sexual manner. I hadn't ever seen myself as a sexual being. Someone who can find joy in the simple pleasures in life. I always just thought that sex was necessary for procreation, but remembering the feeling of Niall's hand in mine. Even though Giselle says he took advantage of my weakened state, cause I was so caught up in the moment, I didn't think of the implications. I was never raised to read between the lines. My mama always wanted me to see the good in people, and wanted me to help them see the good in themselves too.

Don't even get me started on the way Harry was talking about it, like he believed we were committing the worlds biggest sin. I don't understand why me going upstairs was so problematic. I mean, I get Niall's intentions were a little askew, but I wouldn't have let him get far at all. I probably would have freaked before he even got to kiss me, if he kissed me. Giselle says that she hardly ever kisses her one night stands, that it's so much more emotional than sex. I don't get that, but maybe one day I will.

Giselle sleeps peacefully beside me. We talked about what happened to me on the stairs. I talked about Louis, how he basically fell asleep on me, and gave me his weed stick, which I found out is called a blunt! So I look 1% less stupid. She looked a little distraught over me bringing up Louis, but she wouldn't explain why. She also said that she hadn't mentioned them to me before (the boys who aren't American) because she didn't know I was into that kind of thing, and since I so totally am, we imagined booking a trip to Europe. Meeting hot Italian boys, French kissing the french, her drinking in Ireland. Honestly, it was the perfect way to fall asleep if my brain hadn't been running all night long. It's like my brain drank coffee. I was exhausted, and all I wanted was to sleep, but it was escaping me. I guess it's a good thing then, cause I didn't dream of those gorgeous sea green eyes. Why do boys get all the good things? The hair that does what you want it to, why can they just roll out of bed in yesterdays clothing with no makeup? Why don't we bully them for not shaving under their arms? Your armpits don't need to look like jungles boys. Makes me wonder what boys looked like in the cavemen era, women and men were probably covered head to toe in hair, and they didn't complain then? I feel like men have devolved. 

I finally fall asleep, and I probably looked like shit so Giselle didn't wake me in the morning. We really didn't speak much on the weekend. I think she kinda felt bad about forcing me to go to the party, and all that happened when I clearly didn't want to go. As upset as I think I am about everything, I couldn't ever be mad at her for making me go. I really could have let her go on her own, but that idea made me feel sick knowing she was having a bad time too in the end. 

I say I'm not as upset as I think I am (or probably should be) because I learned something valuable. What sex means to the average man. To me, it's everything, just as kisses are. Both are super personal to me, considering I haven't done either. It would take a lot of trust in me to do that with someone else. But to guys like Niall, a proclaimed 'ladies man', sex means nothing. I need to protect myself a little better around these kinds of people. These guys aren't high schoolers, they are full grown adults who still have the mental capacity of a 12 year old boy, meaning they are way worse. I just hope Niall isn't going to talk about me, call me a prude or something nasty. Technically, I wasn't the one who ruined it, it was Harry. Thank God for Harry. God and Harry being in the same sentence sounds just as strange as the devil and God being in the same sentence. Like I feel like Harry isn't menacing, but he kinda intimidates me a lot. More than I think I'd ever admit out loud to myself, or to anyone for that matter.

Everything about him feels like his was created to be just that, magnetic, devilish. He's like the first ever sin created, fresh, new, and pure in a way that's totally warped and evil. It makes me sick to my stomach. His voice too, killer. It's deep and monotone. I wonder if he's ever been happy before. Probably not. It was deep and God forgive, but attractive like all British voices are. But I've heard British voices, and there's nothing so liquid gold like his. Music to my ears. He's barely spoken ten words to me and I already find him interesting. I just wish Niall hadn't been... Well, so boyish. I think I could have genuinely liked Niall. He's not too much like Harry, not sure how true that statement is or not, but their vibes are a little different. Niall is more like a camouflage snake I suppose. You don't realize it's true intentions until it's venom is coursing through you while it drags you back to it's place for a midnight snack. 

But they were just too cute to forget about. Maybe that's their motive. Look like cute little bunny rabbits (minus Harry, he's more like a scary bat, no vampire pun intended), and lead girls into your bedrooms.

The ceiling looks rather interesting this time of day. The popcorn ceiling is painted a fun white color, cause how fun can white paint actually be. I run my finger against the plump part of my lower lip. To kiss someone. To have sex with someone. I wish I hadn't been so afraid, I would have slept with Niall, I'm sure of it, if I hadn't been so afraid of it. Even with all that being said, Harry stopped us from doing anything, not even me. It's like he knew it was going to happen, and he was waiting there to save me. Harry, saving someone. Funny, vampires don't save people, they kill them. Unless I'm like some sort of prey.

You know, in the way that predators play with their food for a while until they devour it. I suck in a quick breath. Can that even be possible? They're both toying with me on purpose, making me think one thing so I ignore the other red flags. I should really as Giselle's mother for a lesson on reading people, it would help me so much in cases like this. I feel like a fly stuck in a spider web. They have me right where they want me, but they're not going to pounce yet, they want to watch me squirm. And boy, do I squirm. 

The door pushes open and I lurch upward to sit making Giselle shriek. "You scared me!" we both shouted at the same time. She groaned and shut the door behind her, sitting down on her bed. "You okay, you don't look okay?" I asked, taking in her appearance. Her lips were downturned in a frown. Giselle never frowns. "My mom called."

Dread. All I feel is the cold washing of dread. "What about it?"

"They found another body in the park last night, around 8 this morning." I let out a deep breath. "Who is it this time?" she looks to the side, eyebrows deep in worry. "Do you remember Eleanor from the bakery? Her daughter came to visit this week, she's been away at college..." Giselle trails off and I sigh. Wow. I went to school with Eleanor's daughter, Ruby. Ruby was two years older than me, so we never spoke, but she always brought treats from the bakery her mom worked in and gave them to the kids who didn't have lunch. Usually just bread, she brought cookies once for the teachers and staff, and she brings cupcakes for kids on their birthdays. "I don't understand what's happening. The people in Georgetown are so sweet." I stand up, running my hands through my messy hair. Giselle nods solemnly. "Yeah, Ruby was a friend of mine actually." I stop pacing and sit down on her bed. "I'm really sorry Giselle." she stutters out a breath, her tears bubbling up in her eyes. "We need to do something about this. I'm putting in an application at the station, and I think you should too. The station needs all the help it can get." Giselle rants. "We need to put a stop to this." my eyes widen and I cup her hands in mine and nod. "Yeah, I can help. I'm not much good when it comes to field work, but I can do something behind the scenes." I nodded, promising away my assistance, and probably every waking minute I have until the case closes. I unclasp a hand from our little bundle on her lap and wipe away at her tears.

"Too many people have died, and I worry every day who's going to be the next one. What if it's my mom, your mom, you!"

"Hey, shh, you said it yourself, the people who were killed were probably affiliated with the gangs. So, we can start with Ruby and her family, see what they know." Giselle's eyes hardens as she shakes her head. "No way would Ruby ever be into something like that, I mean, she gives out cupcakes to people for God's sake, not run ins with drugs and murder!" I wrap my arms around her and hold her tight while she cries. "I know this is a difficult thing to process, but you and I both know, that Ruby getting to go to UCLA is a bit weird, even for this town."

Ruby is one of the first girls since Georgetown Community College, and Greensboro University was crated, to be able to go to a different, more impressive school. Most of the people that lived in Greensboro did that all the time, but then the college was made, and it was slightly more affordable than any other university, so most kids chose to go there instead if they could swing it. My first guess is that Ruby got involved cause she needed the money to go to school, but I'm no investigator, what do I know?

"No! Absolutely not, I am trashing these right now!" 

Officer Westbrook, Giselle's mother wasn't all that impressed with our idea, as you could call it. "But mom, please! We have to do something!" Giselle argued, walking around the precinct like she owns the place. "Giselle Tahlia West, I will not! I mean not, have you or your friends apply for jobs here. That is putting a direct target on your backs." Giselle's mother shot back quickly.

The idea of working for the station hadn't been totally uncalled for for me, I wouldn't mind helping save people. But Officer Westbrook thinks that Giselle and I working for the station will cause some discourse. We could lose friends over it. I mean, wouldn't that be a good thing? If people distance themselves for us, there's probably a reason, no? That would be super suspicious to me. But in her world, that puts a direct 'kill me before I catch you' sign on our backs. Of course it made me worry, but at the same time, this was an important job. I can understand why Officer Westbrook wouldn't want her own daughter to work there, but her not wanting me to work there warmed my heart. I felt like a part of the family. 

Officer Westbrook tears up our printed resume and job applications, tossing them into a shredder. That's a bit deep. "Giselle, maybe we should go." I suggested, tugging on her flannel jacket sleeve, but she rips her arm away. "No, not until I'm working the case."

Officer Westbrook shuts her eyes, pressing her fingers against her temples. I glance around, a couple people that worked here were staring at us like we're crazy. "In my office, now." Giselle's mom snapped and the both of us walked into the office directly behind the front desk. Giselle's mother, Sharon Westbrook, shuts the door, shutting the blinds as well. This feels just as bad as coach yelling at me. Giselle and I take a seat each opposite the desk. "I'm going to have a nice calm discussion about this with the both of you, and when you leave, you will smile, and forget today ever happened." Sharon sits down on her chair. She folds her hands up, fingertips pressing against each other. She takes a gulp of air. "I haven't been completely honest with you baby." She stares at the empty space in between Giselle and I, like she can't bare to look at either of our faces. "So far, we've accumulated a head count of 250 bodies. Some, more mangled than others, most, without identification." Sharon begins, twisting the silver band on her ring finger in a nervous habit. "Ruby was just... 251. Before she was killed, we hired six men and three women to try and infiltrate their ranks, find out who they are, but nobody budged. Nobody in Greensboro or Georgetown knew anything about gangs, rivalries, most barely even knew anything about the murders." Sharon's tongue darts out to swipe across her bottom lip. "Ruby was one of the women we hired, and she came down this week to look into the case." Giselle slams her hands down on either arm rest, shooting up. "Oh my fucking God mom!" Giselle shouts, turning around and grabbing onto her hair. 

"Shh!"

"I'm sorry, what does this mean then?" I asked, leaning forward. Sharon scratches the top of her head. "It means, there are six men missing and two other women who haven't checked in. The gang knows the police are trying to find a way in. Those six men's bodies will be found somewhere, and those two women will be found somewhere else. It's astonishing how well these people work." Sharon's gaze dropped down to the wooden desk. "We sent them in on a suicide mission. All they wanted to do was help!" Sharon chokes, tears pooling in her eyes. 

She takes a couple calming breaths and Giselle finally sits back down after pacing. "We want to help too," Giselle pleads. "We need to help, I need to get justice for Ruby, for everyone."

Sharon just shakes her head. "I can't hire either of you for this. The officers in the precinct aren't allowed to hire any family members. And even if I could, I don't want to put either of you in danger." Sharon stands and I know that is the end of this conversation.

Leaving feels like a blur, and Giselle and I don't speak the entire walk home. She seems... Different. I mean, I would be too if my mother hired a friend of mine to infiltrate a gang and ended up being murdered in the process. I guess I was wrong then, about Ruby being involved with the gang. She died doing what she loved, helping people. I haven't seen the body, and even when Giselle begged before we left, the records were all sealed and impossible to break into now, the entire file on the gangs have been encrypted. So, nothing can be edited, or even looked out without the proper information.

Giselle and I walk to the house together. Her mom said something about giving the both of us a car to share so we're not stuck walking around everywhere. It's very sweet of her, but I never learned how to drive and Giselle and I don't have the same class hours every day, so I'd end up having to walk home or to class anyway. "You okay Giselle?" I asked, stopping her on the driveway. She nods, not meeting my gaze. I know she's thinking of something, she doesn't rest until she gets what she wants, but her mother kinda scared me. I want to live my life honestly, I have a lot more thing's I want to do. Like go to Italy with Giselle, and French kiss the French. I rest a hand on her shoulder making her look at me. "Giselle-" I warned but she shook her head. "I know what my mom said, but we need to do something. 250 people have died! Died!" I hush her but she shakes her head. "I could really use your help. There are six guys who's bodies haven't been found yet, and there are two other women who haven't been found yet. I know you swore you'd keep yourself safe while away at college, but Ruby... Ruby would've gotten involved, she would have wanted people to save the others and stop the gang. I need your Aurora."

My heart clenches at her words. I have no other choice I guess. My hands are shaking as I nod. "Okay. What's the plan?"

R I V A L R Y

[jewishcissiekj]

hi let's talk about her

Honestly I have so much to say about her. so much. so here's some of it

-Asajj (NOT VENTRESS THAT'S HER LAST NAME ISTG PEOPLE JUST HATE USING HER ACTUAL NAME AND IDK WHY I GUESS IT'S A COOL NAME BUT ASAJJ IS ALSO A COOL NAME AND)

-Asajj was last seen in canon in the Dark Disciple novel. Where she died. I would never recommend that book to anyone so if you haven't read it yet please don't. In short, after becoming a Bounty Hunter in The Clone Wars she grew out her hair, got a cool yellow Lightsaber and for some reason teamed up with Quinlan Vos to try and kill Dooku. They didn't manage to do it. And Asajj died (was fridged) trying to protect Quinlan. The Bad Batch will not contradict that, as was said by the creators. So this is just a summary for anyone who hasn't read it because I wholeheartedly believe that book is bad

-I have not watched a single Bad Batch episode in my life. As a disclaimer. I started the first one, watched their TCW arc and saw memes screenshots clips and spoilers but I do not know this show. I will watch it now that Asajj's there tho

-She does not have the same outfit anymore! It's a change, and we haven't gotten a clear look at her new design so idk how to judge it yet. Might be to look less recognizable, but it has a very different vibe than any of her prior outfits. There's a leftover shoulder pad and probably some other stuff from her last design but I feel like they kinda clash with the new one and tbb's design language in general. The Bounty Hunter look has a very TCWish feel to it and this one is a sharp turn in another, much more casual direction. I'm not inherently against it but I guess we'll see how it looks in action soon

-In my opinion the hair looks like shit. I don't think she should have hair ever. I don't understand why she can't be bald. Why is she bald when she's evil and has hair when she's a padawan (good) and when she is "redeemed"? guess we'll never know. It's a leftover from the cancelled Dark Disciple TCW arc design (and the Dark Disciple cover and promotional material ofc) and it's bad if you ask me but to each their own and if you like it good for you

-Her Lightsaber!!!!! Same case as the hair in terms of irl development but I like it so much better. The yellow just fits her character and it's pretty. Would love for her to find another one and get back to dual-wielding (I know that won't happen)

-The bag and pouches make me so happy as a design element do you think she carries a (tooka) cat in there

-Now, visually she looks great and the animation style is smoother and nicer than TCW (as is the quality), but what about the direction the character's going in? I didn't like her being dead before, but I felt like it was somewhat better than her being shoved into being a cameo character in new content. If you can't touch her after a certain point, you also can't mess her up. But I do wonder where they're going with her. A few questions:

-Asajj in canon is a directionless character. Also, a partially nonsensical and inconsistent character in her choices and storylines. I've talked about it a lot but in short she just feels messy. What's her purpose in life? Her motive? Her origin story doesn't really make sense, even. She's a Bounty Hunter, sure, but why? If all she wants is revenge on Dooku and maybe money (which was pretty much the case in Dark Disciple), what's she doing after the Empire? And more importantly, why?

-Obviously, the question I haven't asked yet because I don't like it: How the fuck is she alive? Nightsisters have a weird relationship with death but seriously, how?

-She's a Force User after the Rise of the Empire now, so what does he do about that? Is she founding The Path? Fucking around and finding out? Making a not-Jedi-not-Sith order with other force users she finds? Is the Empire after her? Do they know she's live?

-What about her girlfriend? Is Latts Razzi safe? Is she alright?

-Why is she in The Bad Batch show? Are we making her into a cameo character or is there a purpose? Why'd they bring her back? For fun? What is she doing after the show? Floating in dead space? Cameo-ing? Will we have a book?

-OK enough for tonight but if we see Quinlan Vos in the show I'll become violent (/neg). We probably will (he might just get mentioned idk).

[vinbitism]

RAHHHH GIVE US MORE VINVAN AND VINBIT HCS I YEARRRRNNNNN FOR ITTTTT

the people have ASKED AND THEY SHALL RECEIVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

doing a read more so I don't bother anyone

also have a song

some might get a little gay or a bit suggestive ig so if you don't like it you probably shouldn't read this

Vinnie and habit are so fucking messy, like not in the way they leave shit everywhere (Vinnie probably is a little messy like that but habit will literally force him to clean up after himself LMAO) but they are like the couple who goes out to eat in a restaurant and start a huge fake argument just so they can leave without paying. and it WILL be Vinnie's idea. And habit is staring at him for at least a minute before he finally picks up on what's happening and immediately joins in and insults Vinnie a couple of times until it escalates and they just walk out of the restaurant where they stop fighting and IMMEDIATELY start laughing.

It actually took them a really long time to even acknowledge their feelings for each other. obviously habit is super unaware of what he's feeling because he's never felt it before. He's never been "in love" in fact he's certain he could NEVER be in love. But could he stay home with Vinnie all day instead of going out to kill and feel just as satisfied? Yes. All he needs to do is be around him and God it almost feels like Habit actually has a family. A 2 person family made up of 2 lonely people who have never felt seen or accepted until they found each other.

Vinnie would know about his feelings first and I think he'd figure out habit's feelings before habit himself figures it out, he'd notice all the subtle changes and he'd believe it's all for him and him alone. He'd notice how when Habit is cleaning his knives he's not playing rob zombie or something and instead he has a love song by frank Sinatra and habit is humming along. Vinnie would notice the crinkle in habit's eyes as he smiles at him. He'd notice how habit is so affectionate with him compared to when they first met or compared to anyone else habit talks to. There is something soft, something domestic. And Vinnie is DETERMINED to dig it out of habit.

The kisses??? SLOPPYYYYY. Like they're drooling all over each other and they're basically eating each other's faces. Habit would degrade vinnie and then immediately praise him right after and it would drive Vinnie up the WALL. he wants to be good for habit and he is not scared to show habit just how eager he is.

Vinnie and habit love to grab and touch each other they just can't help it, their hands will just wander all over subconsciously, they're like magnets, they DO NOT WANNA SEPARATE.

Vinnie actually really likes it when Habit is all mean and scary I mean it's actually something he's complained about. He told habit he was getting stale because of the fact that habit has refused to lay a hand on him. He's all "I still have all my limbs!!" like ??? are you ??? asking him to cut them off?? And habit for some reason cannot comprehend the fact that someone could actually want him for who he is.

I've read a lot of fics where habit will climb into Vinnie's lap and I'm SORRY I'm a firm believer in the fact that Vinnie will be the one in habits lap. Habit and his weird monster autism would be THRILLED when he feels the pressure, Vinnie is like an anxiety blanket that he can grab and bite all he wants. And be just likes seeing how flustered Vinnie can get. Habit also likes feeling as if he's the "man of the house." I really think they've got a 50s housewife/cruel husband situation going on. He hits her and she crawls back to him and says she's sorry even tho he's the one who is wrong, yk what I mean??

Habit could order Vinnie around and make Vinnie do a bunch of embarrassing shit and honestly Vinnie would not care and he would willingly do it (after acting like he doesn't wanna do it of course because he is a cunt he will always try and get on habits nerves and habit loves it)

Habit loves telling Vinnie how hot he is and how beautiful and pretty he is and how habit is just so lucky that Vinnie is his and that he would kill anyone or anything that ever tried to take him away. Vinnie BELONGS to habit. Habit stole him fair and square!!

Vinnie knows that habit probably wouldn't like to be smothered with compliments because habit wouldn't believe them, so Vinnie tries to use his actions to prove just how much he means everything he's saying. He wants to love and touch habit everywhere, if he could he would dig through Evans body just to reach habit's true form.

Low-key I also think habit kinda yearns to possess Vinnie and become like Eddie and venom but unfortunately for them it's impossible :/ and habit isn't able to possess him or any of the others

anyways... this is what I've got off the top of my head... if you want you can ask for specific scenarios too!!! I will write for anything if it's those two HELP

[lightwise]

TBB S3 E10 Reaction

Life has been a bit busier the last few weeks so I am finally catching up on my episode reactions (I’m determined to do all of them this season!) And I apologize y’all, this episode made me very snarky apparently.

I’ll be honest. When this episode first came out I was nowhere near as surprised by it or horrified by it as reviewers seemed to be. Nothing about Palpatine hunting down force sensitive children as experiments and using Cad Bane to do it is a surprise, and the Vault feels so much like Andor. But even on a rewatch this episode holds up so well and honestly just starts to give a cold chill under the skin as the quiet horror of it sinks in.

- Cute kid. And the Batch nowhere to be seen. This is going to be a different episode isn’t it

- Oh no. He’s force sensitive 😫😫😫 hmmm how could that possibly go wrong

- This is giving Andor vibes 👀

- It’s always interesting seeing “regular people” in Star Wars and little markets and how they’re just trying to go about their daily lives.

- Don’t go around snitching people! Nothing good ever comes of it!!!

- Yeah this guy is worse than Timm from Andor. Wtf dude. You’re turning in a baby!!

- Also is it just me or typical Star Wars “houses” end up being pretty dark and depressing?

- Wait okay okay. So this is the CX chamber. Why can’t we see any of them yet 😩😩 what is this red fog? What are these weird conditioning pods? What kind of armor is on this datapad?? *trying to crawl inside my screen* I NEED ANSWERS JENNIFER!!

- “Do you trust me?” Ooooh why do I think that’s going to come back around

- But also, babygirl, I don’t think you actually know what you’re signing up for

- “I could be more useful” “you wish to be the new chief scientist Dr. Karr?” “I believe I’ve earned it.” Alright. This. This is interesting. This fully encapsulates the dynamic that these two have shared. Emerie knows that Hemlock only values things that are useful, and probably only sees her own value in the light of what she can contribute, due to how she was raised and the circumstances she has been trapped in. Hemlock’s tone of voice implies that he has never considered her as being the new chief scientist, and yet he acquiesces quite quickly, almost as though he’s just too busy to think about it and if it means things are brought back up to production standard then he’s fine with it. His utter disregard for Emerie as an actual human and someone with merit is disgusting though.

- But I get it, the man’s busy, he’s got a lot of evil shit he’s trying to do all at the same time 🙄

- So we have “the assets”, which is the area that Hemlock took Palpatine in the first episodes, where the orange containment pods are and the zillo beast is being kept. We still don’t know what those assets are. The Vault is something different.

- Well. Shit. It’s Andor and Narkina 5 for kids. Lovely 😳💀

- “There are few adults left with such characteristics” I WONDER IN THE NAME OF ONE EMPEROR PALPATINE WHY

- Okay so this entire exchange is awful. The kids are so cute! Hemlock is so cold. “Specimens. Assets” ughhh Emerie what are you getting yourself into!!

- Is this the first time we’ve heard the word glasses in Star Wars?

- Oh no. So THIS is why Cad Bane was brought back 🥺🥺

- The score in this episode is perfectly eerie

- Lol Todo is not good with kids huh 🤣

- That poor mama when she wakes up and finds her baby is gone

- I hope that dude has his entire life flash before his eyes as he’s trying to pick all of those credits up

- “My name’s Eva” 🥹🥹🥹 Emerie has no idea how to handle this 😂

- I still wanna know what’s happened with these commandos. No way a clone of Jango Fett is able to look a child in the eyes, call them a “specimen” and not have even an ounce of remorse as they stun them point blank.

- “Jax?” And Eva just points. The power in knowing someone’s name vs a dehumanizing number

- It’s also interesting that these kids are species that are red, blue, and green, and when they get Bayrn in, he’s white. RGB colors make up white light when put together.

- The little peeks of Emerie’s backstory we keep getting are so interesting. She was abandoned by Nala Se. She knows that these children don’t belong here, the same way that Omega told both her and Crosshair that they didn’t belong here either. Nala Se says that the Empire will hold these kids to control them. Emerie feels like she has no power to do anything differently. So much to unpack here.

- Why is Tarkin’s holo so large?

- Lol I honestly love getting to see the backbiting politics of how the Empire functions. It’s so bad and so funny

- Also love that Project Necromancer is so secret that even Tarkin doesn’t know what it is. He’s so nosy

- Okay why does he bring up the CX schematic again and why is it so different than the one we saw earlier??

- Whoa Cid was tortured???

- “The other operatives aren’t ready to join you in the field” why????

- We’re visiting a lot of space stations this season

- Man I wish Emerie had fudged this test

- Nooo let the poor baby go home 🥺

- Oh and now we’re putting kids in solitary confinement. Great.

- C’mon Emerie. Keep clicking that moral compass until it points north

- She kept the straw Lula. She’s giving it to Eva 😭. There’s hope for her yet

[flooficandii]

thats got me thinking actually . i havent rly had the energy nor the interest to update nuniq's doc to include interactions w/ the newest agents . including harbor and tjats literally her boyfriend lmao 😭😭😭😭 but anyway lemme make some poorly drawn depictions of what nuniq thinks of the newer agents (starting from clove to gekko)

clove

honestly. nuniq wasnt too jazzed about the idea of hiring a kid (grown adult but theyre a kid to her), especially an untrained one . she understands they might have a link to omen going rogue but is still iffy about the whole situation

also oof. the whole immortality thing? yeah it must be a lot to bear for clove, theyre just very good at hiding it. but like with a lot of the young radiants, nuniq lets them know they can approach her about this stuff bc shes been through it too

she can admit she gets pissed at clove bc their immortality causes them to make more reckless decisions on the field . she wants to get it in their head that you still have to be smart about these things no matter how much power you have

but! she thinks clove is very nice. very silly very sweet guy who is an excellent storyteller. storytelling is very intertwined in both nuniq and clove's cultures so she loves listening to whatever clove can whip up

clove has probably dragged her into dnd at least once

she took a while to grasp it but thats ok shes trying her best

anyway yeah clove talks a lot and sometimes nuniq cant understand them so she has to ask them to slow down

iso

valorant hired him because he was a kingdom killer and nuniq was ALL FOR THAT !!!!

she can tolerate the cocky smug little shit thing bc hes professional at least

hes not very hard to work with and is very cunning and calculating. nuniq likes that

iso has most definitely heard about nuniq before and was surprised to see her alive bc a lot of media made it seem she was dead to quell the uprisings against kingdom

nuniq is fascinated by iso's radiance but it definitely makes her think about how fast and how complex the concept of radiance itself is evolving . to think he could create his own pocket dimension with prismatic energy

besides that i feel like they mostly mind their own business

theres a mutual respect for eachothers skill and grit and they just *nods*

deadlock

like the thing says. theres currently some weird tension between deadlock and nuniq rn (and its surprisingly not gay)

theyre both so cold its kinda hard for either of them to approach eachother

deadlock is. working on her relationship with gekkos creatures! which nuniq appreciates

but idk nuniq never forgets anything and its hard for her to get over the fact she almost killed wingman multiple times

+ proposed awful countermeasures to keep the radivores in check

yk that one headcanon someone made about gekkos friendliness and critters winning over a lot of the protocol?

and how they immediately had beef w deadlock because of it?

yeah thats the situation with nuniq

things have simmered down with the creature situation but nuniq mostly ignores deadlock outside of work

and frankly i think deadlock's scared of nuniq too so

gekko

last but not least GEKKO !!!!

nuniq loves gekko!!! hes so silly

hes fun and lighthearted while still being a good fighter

being around gekko makes nuniq feel. Friendlier idk how else to describe it

also his critters have 100% stolen her heart sometimes she asks to babysit wingman when gekkos busy

she has had to apologize for aput using dizzy as a chew toy though

gekko has dyed nuniqs hair temporarily; it was northern lights-colored streaks that looked really cool when braided, she kept it for about a month until it washed out

overall she thinks hes very sweet and she and reyna can get along over being protective of him

anyway yeah i think thats every agent so far after harbor! wow !!! i cant believe we've already made it this far to agent 25 .. and agent 8 still hasnt been revealed yet i love valorant lore (tired

[sp-growingpains]

Heyy 👋👋 its me again teehee

Im absolutely exhausted from these assignments and reading about Jean lore always cheers me up 🫶 (but no pressure to answer)

1. We've seen a lot about Jean's relationship with Kyle and Stan, but what about Kenny, Butters, and Eric? What are their interactions like?

2. Is she more extroverted or introverted? What are people's first impressions of her?

3. What are her feelings towards school and how well does she do? Does she hate it? Is she a straight A student?

4. What clique is Jean in? I think you've mentioned she has a soft spot for the goth kids, so is she a part of their group? And if not them, then who?

5. Weird one, but if someone were to break into Jean's house (considering how crazy South Park can get sometimes this isnt that farfetched), what's the first thing she's grabbing? If she fight or flight?

When I tell you that you actually made me tear up from asking this alone. The thought that my little blorbo makes you happy fills me with so much joy. I hope you understand that I plan on giving that love back! 🫶

OH IT'S RAMBLIN' TIME

Her Relationship With Others!

Starting with the most difficult going to the easiest to think about

Cartman: Real talk, I've spent hours thinking about her relationship with Eric. And like most people's ocs with him, it's complicated. On a normal day, she's a perfect victim for his schemes. Jean is a himbo down to her core. That means she's very gullible, to the point where it takes her a long time to learn not to keep falling for it.

If the Cartman Schemes are harmless and just fall back on her, it's fine. Most of the time, she'll laugh it off and think it's just Cartman's way of playing.

When it bleeds over to the others, that's when she gets frustrated with him. She truly believes that people are good at their core and that belief extends to him. So it frustrates her when she sees him fall into those ignorant habits or that extreme behavior.

Now, when it comes to his attitude towards Kyle, she takes a bit of a back seat. I have thoughts about her stepping in if it ever got physical or if either one took it too far. Because we've seen that Kyle's attitude towards Cartman is antagonistic at times. That's not to say he's as bad as Cartman (because NO ONE is as bad as Cartman), but Kyle does come off as very "Holier than thou art"! Jean's doesn't know a lot, but she knows when something is a losing battle.

Outside of that, she thinks most of the things he says is just some attempt at crude, edgy, 4chan humor. Because no one could really think those things. Right?

The only time Jean gets legitimately beyond angry with him was that whole thing with Kyle and Nichole. At the end of the day, she wants all of her friends to be happy. Nichole brought Kyle legitimate happiness, and he ruined that.

Butters: Oh sweet Butters. Baby boy Butters. Most of the fandom has reduced Leo to a sweet sunshine boy who could do no wrong.

Personally, as me, I know he's not like that. He's a sweetheart, sure, but he's also a little stinker. He falls into the same stupid habits of being tricked like Jean would. "Fool me once shame on you," kind of thing. Says some pretty dumb shit and does dumb shit just like the rest of them.

However, that mentality the Fandom pushes onto Butters is almost how Jean sees him. It's unfortunate, but Butters could get away with so much because of it. To her, Butters will always be that little brother that she has to protect. When he starts coming around more, she makes a silent vow to keep him safe.

But honestly, because of that view, she probably will never be super close to him. Almost to the point where she doesn't take him very seriously. And I can see that frustrating Butters later on in life. It would take him either blowing up on her or someone pointing it out that Jean treats him kinda like a joke. Of course, she'll feel horrible about it because that's never her intention.

But she goes out of her way to make sure he's included in things like late night diner runs. Out of hand parties. Goofy arcade outings. Birthday parties!

Kenny: The final dude on the main four, but certainly not forgotten. He's another one I've spent a very long time thinking about.

When I think about their relationship, I truly believe Kenny is the only one who really sees how self-destructive Jean is to herself. I've talked about how Stan and Jean understand each other in a way you can only get with someone who's like you, but that in itself isn't healthy. It becomes an echo chamber.

Kenny is the person who really pulls Jean out of her shit. He calls her out when she's on her fourth energy drink. When she's sweating vodka or when she stays up too late. What makes him so perfect for this is that Kenny is so casual about it. He does it in a way that doesn't make her feel bad about being fussed over.

Besides his laid-back attitude, there's an agreement between the two of them. Kenny and Jean look out for each other. I have always preached Kenny McCormick is a man who would give the world everything. He's so very kind, he loves so very much and Jean loves that about him. Loves that so much that she will give him the world back.

When they're old enough to understand, she offers her home to him and his sister. Making sure they have a warm meal and a place away from it all. What's the point of that big old empty house if you've got no one to share it with. Even then, when Jean's trying to give him something, he's taking care of her. Giving her that purpose she so desperately craves.

Jean's incredibly jealous of Kenny, and that drives her to be better. To do more. I guess in a roundabout way, Kenny is a friendly rival that keeps her going.

I also headcanon that Kenny is the one that did her industrial bar! They DIY their piercings together like idiots.

Extroverted and Burnt Out!

My buddies and I have talked a lot about how much of yourself you put in your oc. I try very hard to make all of my ocs their own person, but I don't hide the small amount I put of myself in my ocs. For Jean, I gave her my horrible habit of doing too much!

Jean is an extrovert! She loves going out, meeting new people, and constantly being on the go. It stems from that fear of being alone, being trapped with your thoughts, and needing to be needed so badly. She puts too much of herself out there until she crashes and burns. That typically comes from doing something reckless.

On the outside, Jean puts up a friendly front. She's goofy, loud, warm, and the personification of a golden retriever! The way she dresses and how big of a woman she is might give her a bit of a scary vibe, but she's honestly a big teddy bear. The last thing she wants is to scare people, so she tries to keep a smile on her face!

Smooth-Brain Hours!

Jean absolutely hates school. She hates having to sit still for hours in a desk that's too uncomfortable, listening to some teacher who probably doesn't give a shit about the thing they're teaching about. High-school Jean is a menace. She doesn't go out of her way to disrupt class because she won't even show up if she can help it. Especially if it's science and math. She doesn't get it and it frustrates her.

I've made jokes about her being stupid and a himbo, and jokes aside, she's just not book smart. If it's something that interests her, she's all over it! If we're comparing her to the other students, she's about Clyde's level of intelligence. The only difference is that she tries very hard to listen to the people who are smart.

It's only through the grace of her friends and those who care about her that she even passed to begin with. This kind of leads into her 'blind loyalty'. If Kyle, Tolkien, Nichole, or Wendy tell her something, she believes them almost to the point where she won't question it!

The things that keep her coming back are those people and the after-school activities. Playing basketball and getting to jam out in the music room! Going to watch football games and support her friends! Never a dull day in South Park, and she loves the chaos that comes with it.

The Squad

It's really hard to clock Jean into one clique. My first thoughts are those group of gym bros that will hype you up! Then I remembered all of my friends who are a part of the metal/punk community are like that.

So that's her little community outside of her normal squad. Her jacket has different patches on them that remind her of her friends and her favorite bands. She's got a Dio patch across her right chest pocket, that one is closest to her heart! Her favorite thing to do is to get into the pits and mosh! Loud music drumming in her ears and flowing through her veins. Surrounded by other people who just get it.

Punk is about community and standing up again injustice. Jean's got a problem with authority, especially when it comes to stupid adults. She's grown up surrounded by her friends' horrible parents, teachers who don't give a shit, and stupid hicks. She's gonna be a part of a group that's a little...defiant?

I can see the goths, at least tolerating her. Mostly because their insults slide off her smooth brain. That and she enjoys listening to their poetry when she skips class for a smoke break!

Them's Fighting Words

I talk a lot about how Jean is this big teddy bear. This gentle giant with a heart of dumb. But the reason she's like this is because she tries very hard to be like this. In actuality, under all of that sunshine, she loves a good fight. The rush, the adrenaline behind it all, down to the pretty purple bruises that come with it. It all feels so very deserved.

And that's not right. It's not normal to think like that.

So if a fight presents itself. Someone breaks into her house, hearing about how some stupid woman lives alone in this fancy house, and that makes for easy pickings; she's gonna take it eagerly. Any excuse to let go of that pent-up rage she keeps bottled up.

The fun answer as to what she's grabbing would be her guitar, but she'd rather bleed out on the floor than break her darling instrument. So she grabs her bass instead. Besides, everyone knows the bass swings harder. Makes a nicer sound when it comes into contact with someone's head too.

If she wins the fight and she knows the fight is done, she'll take responsibility for the damage she's caused. If something is broken, she goes out of her way to make sure the person can get to the hospital. For as much as she loves fighting, and the pain feels deserved for her, she's a bleeding heart. In the back of her head, whoever broke into her house had to do it out of desperation. Had to have a reason for why they needed to do this. Maybe she can help them. Put them on the right path! Sometimes, that path starts with a few fists being thrown!

Hey, thanks for being patient with me, and I hope this was a fun read! I truly appreciate and adore this community and the friends I've made through it! I want to continue to get better with my art and word smithing so I can make the content you all deserve! You really made me think about some things I wouldn't have considered! Your brain is beautiful and I love it!